GOD ALWAYS HAS BETTER PLAN-

GOD ALWAYS HAS BETTER PLAN. 
(FB entry 15 March 2015- First entry on survivorship)

Last friday, i was supposed to attend my first support group meeting at SJMC. Having thousands of butterflies in my big tummy (visible in the pic) , i turned in quite late for the meeting. May be 'quite' is an understatement, as i arrived at 10.45 am, 45 minutes later, hoping that it will last at 11. Upon approaching an empty conference room, to my surprise, i was disappointed. As scared-like-hell as i was; i do actually hope that i will meet some of the survivors to hear their stories and sharing.
According to the counselor, Kelly, she didn't expect me to come, so as the rest of those who were supposed to come, as none replied to the invitation. (Bet i'm not the only chicken here, hahaha) So, they decided to cancel the meeting. Being a nice lady and as not to disappoint me more(may be it shows clearly on my face) she introduced me to this wonderful lady, as she is the only survivor around (She was having her exhibition in conjunction to the 'open day').

Elaine Therese, a survivor of ovarian cancer cum painter taught me a lot. She shared with me on how her life is through out the 'journey' and after, the experience and how she, a homemaker survives through it by expresing it through her beautiful arts ( new profound hobby the moment she was diagnosed)

Even though i joined & attended a lot of 
survivor activities, never met her yet.

The first assurance and lesson learnt from her would be : cancer is no longer a taboo in our society. It is not something which is rare nowadays. It doesn't happen cause you did anything wrongdoing in your life or cause god hates you. It simply happens cause it is GOD's PLAN. You will not get cancer because you live your life wrong, eating the wrong food, living the wrong way of life etc..etc..(the list can goes on very long you see) it simply happens because choosing you to be one is simply GOD'S PLAN. Again. Nowadays, even a doctor can get it. So, are we saying that doctors don't even know how to take care of their life? 
The sooner you accept it, the easier it will be. Being in denial will bring you nowhere. Cherish the experience and the journey. When asked on whether the cancer will restrict your life ( one of the most-i-need-to-know the answer question, who didnt right?) She calmly answered, no, it won't. Instead you will appreciate your life more, value everything and everyone surrounding you more. In short, life will be far more meaningful as you will have different perspective towards it. Reflecting what she said, yes, I so call have to agree. Yes, the storm will come with the thunders and lightnings, but remember, GOD'S PLAN is the best. Once the monsoon seasons passed, you will see the ray of light. There must be something in store for you provided that you look into it deeply.
Yes, admitting and accepting is not easy. That is why usually people tend to hide the fact that they have it. Its the resistance and denial. I do understand, as it i not easy. Really (100×) far from easy to accept and live with. But remember, denial and resistance will bring you nowhere, contributing to a latter detection as well, leading to lesser-can- be done later as it is too late. Don't afraid that it will lessen your feminine side as it will NOT. 
Everyone will know a person with a cancer throughout their life. This is the fact, nowadays, and i bet you, those who are reading this, that you know 'a person' now. Exposing that you have it is not a proud statement like to show that you have something that the rest didn't, its a statement that 'i have it and i am accepting and going though it as god planned it for me'.

I am exposing it for a good cause. Cause i know that support doesn't come easy and that sometimes, you don't know where you can turn to for a shoulder to cry on. So , if you happen to need support regarding this later, either for yourself or anyone that you know( you will never know), i am HERE for you and for them.

Not to say that i didn't receive any support from anyone, i do. Especially from my dearest Muhamad Shukor Jab (love you so much!) and some good friends (you know who you are!) And i can never repay you guys! God bless all of you, Insyaallah.


As having the guts and courage to talk about it for a good cause, direct in fb summore! As having the so call 'new-boost - of courage' totally change my whole perspective towards it, Least did i expect that comfort and support comes from a stranger.

Although we worship different god, Thank you my dearest new friend, Elaine Therese for showing me that god's plan indeed is the best! Alhamdulillah and Thank you Allah for blessing my life and for showing me hope through this wonderful lady.

#mylifelessons
#possiblepossibilities

P/s : Besides selling her artwork and channel it to the cancer awareness campaigns and programs, her daughter invented this cute 'never give up bunny' that i am holding. And no, i didn't buy those bunny, she gave it to me as a token of our newly bloom friendship.